Lately I feel as though I'm living in a bubble vainly looking at the outside in the hopes that someone will rescue me from it. While I have an amazing boyfriend and some great friends who are kind enough to relieve this feeling, whenever I'm alone it creeps right back and at times it is overwhelming. I suppose it can be helpful when I have tests to study for or papers to write, but lately all it's been is frustrating.
I guess the main reason behind this post is the fact that I was sitting outside thinking about my family and I realized that I have no clue what's happening in any of their lives-including my own sister's-except from what I find out via facebook. Do you have any idea how frustrating it is to find out that your family has all these things planned and yet none of them bothered to take into consideration the fact that I might like to know about these things and even participate in them if I'm home for them? I do understand that I am over 1000 miles away at school but that doesn't mean that I've completely disappeared.
Another question is why is it that I have to be the one to initiate everything-from phone calls to emails to chats on facebook? And why is it that it seems like the only thing some of my family have to say to me is to lecture me about the "mistakes" I am making in my life? Is getting good grades, being secretary for 2 clubs on campus, going to several bible studies, and singing in one of the choirs on campus a mistake? I honestly don't think so, so why do people in my own family constantly belittle me and my dreams?
I know this may sound like I am complaining, but my patience with the world is slim to none. Hopefully next time my post will be more positive. Thank you for putting up with my rant.
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